In theory

All honor, praise, and glory to the creator.

​In chaos theory, the butterfly effect is the sensitive dependence on initial conditions in which a small change in one state of a deterministic nonlinear system can result in large differences in a later state.


Responsibility. Decisions affecting the whole, for better or worse. Butterfly effects. Where would I be? What would I be doing were I allowed to work a job at 16 vs being encouraged to focus on my studies, which I neglected, and instead focused on making music and being young and dumb? Maybe I’d be more socially and financially mature.. What if I chose to embrace my studies in college, maturing socially and educationally, maybe politically as well, instead of squandering the experience to be safely irresponsible? Where would I be? What would I be doing? Who would I be? This isn’t rumination about past mistakes or time wasted, rather the implications of decisions we make on a moment by moment, day by day basis (I’m watching Butterfly Effect). Oddly connecting with it more now than when it was just a casual viewing. I’ve ruminated enough over the years, my awareness of self bursting front and center of my consciousness these days, shifting, expanding... I choose to affect positive change in my life and those connected to me, considering what’s on the line when I think about it. I greet others with a kind gentleness for the most part, ask customer service representatives about their day and thank the bus drivers when exiting, lil things like that, just cause.. planting seeds of deep empathy, gratitude, compassion, and understanding. You never know who you’ll affect with your words and actions. Pay the kind gestures forward, I say. Nama says we may be the only Christ people will see. Seems like a burden sometimes, but I guess it comes with the territory.

I can’t change what I’ve done in the past but I can always begin anew.

​Bare with my concision.