Michelle’s verse is one of my favorites, btw

"Do you see my pain?

Do I seem like prey?

Empathy be the reason you're still standing.."

Nama tell me people don’t really care for all that explaining. I tell her I explain things because I appreciate when someone takes time to explain things to me. We agreed that everyone and everything don’t necessarily need an explanation so..

​Let me explain.. I've been holding onto this for a while and was gonna release it in July but there were a number of ducks to consider in their proper rows annnnd decided to keep it in the stash for now (no worries tho)

now that the blog is up, figure this is the best place to keep it for those who aren’t here from IG (or twitter) haha

​ENJOY!!!

Neutral Good
A neutral good character does the best that a good person can do. He is devoted to helping others. He works with kings and magistrates but does not feel beholden to them.
Neutral good is the best alignment you can be because it means doing what is good without bias for or against order.
Neutral good can be a dangerous alignment when it advances mediocrity by limiting the actions of the truly capable.
Creatures of neutral good alignment believe that there must be some regulation in combination with freedoms if the best is to be brought to the world--the most beneficial conditions for living things in general and intelligent creatures in particular. Creatures of this alignments see the cosmos as a place where law and chaos are merely tools to use in bringing life, happiness, and prosperity to all deserving creatures. Order is not good unless it brings this to all; neither is randomness and total freedom desirable if it does not bring such good. (1)
Neutral goods value both personal freedom and adherence to laws. They feel that too many laws may unnecessarily restrict the freedom of good beings. They also believe that too much freedom may not protect society as a whole and encourage counterproductive divisions and in-fighting. They promote governments which hold broad powers, but do not interfere in the day-to-day lives of their citizens. (2)
These characters value life and freedom above all else, and despise those who would deprive others of them. Neutral good characters sometimes find themselves forced to work beyond the law, yet for the law, and the greater good of the people. They are not vicious or vindictive, but are people driven to right injustice. Neutral good characters always attempt to work within the law whenever possible, however. (3)
To a neutral good being, life and the assurance of other creatures' rights take precedence over all else. This is not to say that this character will have an aversion to taking another's life when faced with a choice between an attacker's and his own, however. Neutral good beings also believe that law and chaos are merely tools to use in bringing life, prosperity, and happiness to all deserving creatures. Neither numbers nor individual concerns have any bearing on decisions regarding the needs and rights of any given creature. In other words, in the view of a neutral good being, rarely will either the needs of the many or the personal desires of an individual outweigh the needs of any other creature. All life is given even-handed treatment. As with all alignments neutral with respect to law and chaos, self-reliance is a cornerstone of a neutral good being's personality. In a crunch, neutral good characters trust in themselves and in no other individual or group. This doesn't mean they can't make friends and develop trusting relationships with others, however. Neutral good beings aren't normally as independent as chaotic good beings, and they can cooperate in groups. But they won't always trust a group to be more effective than they could be themselves. (4)
A neutral good character will keep his word to those who are not evil and will lie only to evil-doers. He will never attack an unarmed foe and will never harm an innocent. He will not use torture to extract information or for pleasure. He will never kill for pleasure, only in self-defense or in the defense of others. A neutral good character will never use poison. He will help those in need and works well alone or in a group. He responds well to higher authority until that authority attempts to use the law to hamper his ability to do good. He is trustful of organizations as long as they serve his utilitarian purpose. He will follow the law unless more good can come from breaking the law. He will never betray a family member, comrade, or friend. Neutral good characters are indifferent to the concepts of self-discipline and honor, finding them useful only if they promote goodness. (5)
Here are some possible adjectives describing neutral good characters: self-reliant, helpful, courteous, kind, respectful, sensitive, friendly, loving, merciful, gracious, humane, altruistic, giving, respectful, and protective of life.
Well known neutral good characters from film or literature include: Captain James T. Kirk (Star Trek), Gandalf the Grey (Lord of the Rings), Harry Potter (Harry Potter), and Spiderman (Marvel Comics).
Equivalent alignment in other game systems: Scrupulous (Palladium), Road of Humanity (Vampire), Light Side (Star Wars), Good (Warhammer), Gallant and Ethical (Alternity).
The Ten Neutral Good CommandmentsA list of Ten Commandments for a neutral good religion may look like this:
1. You shall lie only to evil-doers.
2. You shall not harm the innocent.
3. You shall not murder.
4. You shall help the needy.
5. You shall honor those who promote goodness.
6. You shall follow the law unless breaking the law results in more good.
7. You shall not betray others.
8. You shall bring evil-doers to justice.
9. You shall steal only to promote goodness.
10. You shall seek unlimited good for others.

Focus...

focus (n.)
1640s, "point of convergence," from Latin focus "hearth, fireplace" (also, figuratively, "home, family"), which is of unknown origin. Used in post-classical times for "fire" itself; taken by Kepler (1604) in a mathematical sense for "point of convergence," perhaps on analogy of the burning point of a lens (the purely optical sense of the word may have existed before Kepler, but it is not recorded). Introduced into English 1650s by Hobbes. Sense transfer to "center of activity or energy" is first recorded 1796.
focus (v.)
1775 in optics, "bring into focus" (transitive); 1807 in the figurative sense, from focus (n.). Intransitive use by 1864, originally in photography. Related: Focused; focusing; less commonly focussed; focussing.

FOCUS


So I'm learning how to care for a yard..

There's so much work to be done personally and professionally, and i'm in a place where I can continue getting things done, only more efficiently. One step closer to Arielle..

Nama has a pretty sizeable yard and a number of projects in-line to keep it up. She and my Father are suuuper down-to-earth. I came in as the airy, humble servant of a son to be used at will for all tasks she'll have me manage.. and there are a many tasks to be managed..

This is all new to me but I'm just glad to be in her presence. I'm so glad to be of service to her, whatever she'll have me do, I'm doing with a smile. Recycling and rotating the compost was nothing. Setting the concrete pavers down was relatively easy once I got the hang of it. She reinforced the work I did with positivity and I relished in it. She came home from work and I was all "Look, Granny!! Come see what I did!!" like the proud Grandson I am.. Task after task, I I'm proving my worth out there WITH A SMILE. Next project was to create rows in the garden so we could plant tomatoes and beans. I devour whole tomatoes alone and enjoy beans whenever I eat em. Let's get it! 

I had one job: create three rows

Nama (and my Dad) set me up with step-by-step instructions, told me to google it, go in the shed and grab my tools, then get to it. Bet! I google all the time. OG Googler here. So I does what I does, I googles it, watch a couple lil youtube videos, now I know what i'm doing. I got this. I remember what I just watched and a lil bit of what I read, I had my tools, minus the hoe, cuz If you ask me, "I ain't got no hoes, mane."  I used a small pitchfork-looking thing in place but that's cool. We work with what we have, right? I observed the landscape, did a lil mental math, then went right in.

I butchered the rows.

Not because I ain't have a hoe tho...

You'd think there were bodies lying around waiting to be put to the worms how deep I dug those rows. We're planting tomatoes, ain't we?  I'm looking at em like "Something aint right here." Did a lil mental math, Dug em another way.. the math still off..

Nope.

I put everything back in the shed and waited for her garden expertise to get home. "I'm good, google. Imma wait on Nama."

She came home, laughed at me, showed me the way, then that was that.

Next day is plating day.

She gives me step-by-step details of how we're gonna plant em and I'm just so thrilled to be a gardening man. Gardening with NAMA. THE HIGH GRANNY. I'm One with the Earth. Root Chakra work. Cultivating me some Gaia. Yea!  I simply say "Okay" and "Yes, ma'am" as she gives me instructions cuz it's not hard to remember simple directions and i'm in such a state of joy that I just wanna get started already. Anyways, "I'm intelligent."

So we get in the garden. I'm talking to her while we're planting, making my jokes, oh-so-jovially. 

I planted the beans wrong. Not wrong enough that they won't grow but wrong enough to leave an impression worth reflecting on in terms of my focus, where it went and how fast it went before my eyes...

Wrong enough that Nama said (If i were a slave) I'd be kicked off the field and forced to work in the house..

Let that breathe..